I could not sleep that whole night ,was just continuously remembering each and every moment spent with you. If i could just bring all of them back, if i could erase the stupid fights that i had with you or if i could just stopped you that day from going . or if i could have loved you a little more within the time i had . All those feelings are stuck inside my heart and i keep thinking it again and again each time your name comes to my mind.

The barrier to my emotions that i had created over time was broken in a flash of second i got the call from that guy rishab from delhi .

That morning i was getting ready for my office . Mom has already called me twice for breakfast ,i was late for the bus and still was busy in finishing up some ppts for today’s presentations. I was in a hurry to reach office so that i will have some extra time before the meeting to discuss everything with shruti.

Rishab: Hi , is this Ankita!.

Me: Yes its me , who is this.

Rishab: Hi its rishab this side, i have something that belongs to you .

i was still wondering why a guy from delhi is calling me and ,how does he know my name and what does he have that belongs to me .I myself have never been to delhi, how can someone have something that’s mine. I wonder if this is some prank call from someone who is just trying to irritate me .the number of calls that a normal person gets from a bank , it could have been anyone who just got my number and called just to annoy me. Sometime i feel it rude to cut the phone in middle of the conversation even if its just the credit card guys.

So i asked

Me: What do you have , and how did you get this number.

Rishab: I hope you know sagar , sagar mehra right!

There ,the name i am hearing after three years .The name that was my life. and the name  that is no more with me and the name which had the biggest impact on my life .Just by hearing his name 

I could not feel anything  instantly  i just went numb , i was holding my office bag in my hand ,that slipped from my hand and tears rolled down from my eyes ,and i felt like a pound of stone just stumped on my heart. I could not speak , i could not move from my place , just for few seconds i felt the time has stopped. And  the most beautiful  four years that i had  just flashed in front of y eye.

(continuing …..)